I HATE EVRYTHING ABOUT YOU...WHY DO I LOVE YOU

Thu, Feb 12, 2009 at 10:29 AM By: *Shaddix32*

sorry i know i posted this yesterday but it got deleted haha my bad....
ok so i need to let this out but i just cant bring myself to say this to her face so.....I'm gonna let it out here.....

you say your there for me but that's shit, you know I'm all alone, you left my ass for that jackass your about to marry. i don't like him at all i don't trust him. babe i wish you could see who he really is, your so lost in love you cant see hes going to be the death of you! you lie to my face every time you get a new boyfriend, it's always the same "i promise i wont forget my friends" but i smile and let you go......just so i can hold you wipe away your tears after he breaks your heart. you say i don't show my emotions, that's just because i know you you don't need my pain, i can't talk about anything with you, its always the same you either roll your eyes and shake your head or say "o I'm so sorry babe". why bother with you!!!! people tell me to let you go, that your gone and will never be the same again, some tell me i should hurt you too, and at time i wish i could.......but i dont wanna be like you. its like your dead to me and every now and then i see your ghost.....but your not the same....
i want to scream your so damn blind babe!!!!!!!
hes WAY to over protective, he wont let you out of his sight ever! i cant even talk to you with out him flipping out! what happen when i move to California?!?! you say i need you but i don't, i'll be fine on my own, it's you who will need help, but its not your ever gonna see that, for god sakes he sleeps with a knife at his side and a shot gun in the bedroom......a guy in a gang?!?! are you fucking kidding me babe, you could do a hell of a lot better, you just don't see it, you just want to run from your pain. that's where we're so different, i'll fight my pain tell my death were you rather act like the world is a happy care free place, and just hide your pain but babe you should know from looking at my life, that running from pain gets you no where, i lost EVERYTHING i loved this summer and it still hurts me, some nights i cant stop crying and i need my best friend again but your never there, it wouldn't have hurt so bad....but the fact that you could see my tears at school and you did nothing.....that gets to me. your so cought up in your boy that you don't see that you've lost all of your friends. i promised you i would never leave your side and damn me, we both know when i make a promise i keep it. i just wish you could see what has happened to you.i wish i had my one and only bff here in mo. again, but I'm not blind like you i know I'm im alone here and i;ll move on, ha i find it funny that i have dated just as much as you and yet i ALWAYS put my friends before my boyfriend because you know what.....guys are gonna walk in and out of are lifes like a drive thru but friends are forever, and when he dumps your ass all you need is a friend to wipe away the tears. you drive me crazy i hate who you have become but......I'm not going to leave you....but i have no choice but to let you fall on your ass. but don't worry steph. i;ll do what i always do, i'll pick you up and wipe away the tears and tell you hes not worth crying over and we start this bull shit over again and again and again, because thats what you do when you love someone... no matter how much it hurts you........

i wish i was a big enough bitch to say this to your face but i just can't bring myself to hurt you..............

*MONICA*

  1. *Shaddix32* avatar

    On Mar 26, *Shaddix32* said:

    ^__^ i cants say that i understand this whole thing that has happened but i can say that its ok as long as i have you back in my life in some kind of way..... i miss you like hell

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    On Mar 19, MigG+ said:

    ei whats up ?hows your day? im really sorry i snob you those past day's i was really out of my mind... and i was so stress out shit! im really sorry for what happen to our relationship....ill be happy if we could be friends again...




    SORRY ......

  3. *Shaddix32* avatar

    On Mar 10, *Shaddix32* said:

    lmao umm his name is sam (what did you have a blond moment there ash. ^_^ ) but its just the same shit as always there always fighting and shes always crying and even tho she drives me crazy i dont wanna see her hurt by him you know what im sayin

  4. Beeni avatar

    On Mar 04, Beeni said:

    sorry, I accidently posted twice ( I guess now 3 times)

  5. Beeni avatar

    On Mar 04, Beeni said:

    Did something happen between Steph and her boyfriend whose name isn't comin to me at this moment?

  6. Beeni avatar

    On Mar 04, Beeni said:

    Did something happen between Steph and her boyfriend whose name isn't comin to me at this moment?

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    On Feb 18, sixxersworld said:

    you sound really hurt....and you sound like an amazing friend...it's too bad she doesn't realize what she has *hugs*

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