...We all fall off the wagon sometimes....
Hey my lovely Roaches and fellows.
Yeay i cant quit listen to SIXX AM...those and the Roach music is the only i can listen to right now.
Okay..so in 3 days is the day,that i´m counting since weeks.
Cause thursday my parents had let me go to the PRoach concert in Bremen.
I have my diagnostics in the psychiatry...and im afraid as hell.
Normaly i would had this in october,ya know? But they talked with my shrink and so i got that on the 18.06...thats kinda not an good sign hu.
I dont know what i should do. I wont go into that psychiatry,but i cant go on like this at home and school...thats no life! With all this memorys and..i dont go forward here..
The Rehab was shit,they didnt take me cause the drugs and things..and halleluja they send me to the psychiatry....
The only place where i like to be is here,the Riot with all the awesome people,and ya guys and girls will be the only ones that i´ll miss.
I will be lost without Papa Roach...theyr going to take me the only Lifeline and happyness away.
My parents dont know that with the borderline personality disorder,and i wont them to know that,but i kinda think that the shrinks and what ever works there are going to tell em.
I really dont know what i should do..i dont know...and i never felt that nervous and frighten.
i´ll get an date,when i have to go...fuck i hate that..i cant think right now,everything is turning arround and wont stop.
Okay..i will keep my first Roach konzert as light ya know...but..i dont think that i can stand that.
I know that sounds kinda stupid...but some goodby words from ya and the guys would be..yea awesome ya know..
I made an scrapbook,with the lyrics,pictures and comments. I hope i can take that with me >_<
IDK i need something to do or talk right now. Do ya know that? i feel kinda caged
Stay Infest and Take Care!