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ok. last night i really felt like singing, so i told my mom that i'll sing to her. God, i've never ever sang to anyone! so i turned the music on and while my mom was cooking i sang right in front of her.
you know, music is my life, it's what keeps me alive. so it's logical my BIGGEST BIGGEST dream to be to sing. buut i'm too shy and i'm always afraid that someone will laugh in my face and say 'what the hell are u thinking?!? haaaaahahahahhahahaha!' and soo i never did. sometimes even i do not like myself.
but this night i was just so concentrated and i was singing like an hour before i decided to annoy my mom. so i sang like 14 acoustic paramore songs! in the end i couldn't sing anything anymore. hahahaha. :D it felt really good and it was good, u know! i was good. i'm not pretending to be talented or something, because i rarely listen to myself when i'm singing and i almost never like myself. and i'm NOT talented, i've just sang to myself for so many years that i might have learned a thing or two. but i can hear myself. and my mom liked me too.
maybe when you stop trying to cry loader than the stereo and u start listening to what you're doing, you might find out that u're not that bad.
so my mom knows what music means to me, and she knows how passionate i am about singing, so i finally persuaded her to find me a music teacher!
it's not gonna be easy, i'm sure, but i know i want it and i know i'll never forgive myself if i don't even try. so what do i lose?!
and if YOU have some dream.. you love to paint, to do sports, to play some instrument, to write or ANYTHING, what are you waiting for?? go out and make your dreams come true!! if that's your way ti express yourself and that's what you love to do, what you identify yourself with, the just do it!! life's out there and it's waiting for you to live it YOUR WAY! the rest is just particular. :]
that's it guys. just wanted to say: FOLLOW YOUR DREAMS NO MATTER WHAT! you can never get regret being urself! :]
good luck and remember: NEVER GIVE UP! rock on!