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Perhaps I don't have experience to in love with a girl as a lover ,I don't really know how to express something ... it's been 3 weeks I have known a girl ,she is my junior in my university . We know each other although we study some course together even we are spending a major that is different in these years .

I think I have been enduring a long time in this university without finding a true love in my life . I actually admit I fall in love with a Myamma girl before on my writing on here ...but that was just a shot in my heat ,finally it goes away from here ... that was just have a crush on her ,but not definitely move toward to show my love on expression .

Today I try to being sophomore on my point ,doing everything I suppose it is right in my way . I have even think about I will never ever have a chance to fall in love again in this university ,plus I am so busy for my school life with a lot of homeworks . However there is an opportunity appears in my lifetime ,making me to find a girl who is kindness and lovely. She tries to enjoy everything with me ,although our background are differently ,and we still found something interesting to make each other enjoyable with pleasantly . Only one word I can present ,she make me never feel in lonely anymore . I think it is my brightest moment in my heart ,so I can directly to spit it up . Remember she approach on me ,I was so nervous .but finally I get used to do in my life .


Tonight (Dec 7 2011 ) I finally cannot prevent myself to speak out my words to her ,telling her so much stories .Obviously , she can't understand the meaning I mean about .So I decide to tell her " I like her " ....
She feels much suprise even if she has a boyfriend . I know that is not a right way to tell her even she has a boyfriend in her life ,I don't allow myself to break their relationship as third party either . So I told her I am so happy to be your younger brother even if I like you in the hope of being your lover . I know if I love a girl the most important things is to let her be happy =] with respect what she has in her own life . Trying tolerate everything what I don't have ,but she has gotten .... this is a very worthful point in the life of everyone . I can enjoy freedom from this point I guess ...

aha! I feel so much freshness after I have written down all the unspeakable the story of mine in real life ... Wish I will be lucky to have a good friendship with her even we are not lover .

Evan learns a lot in the experience of his life ~