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12 days of suffering. I wouldn't wish this on anybody. Feel trapped inside my own body. If I cough to get the shite out of my lungs, it rips my rib cage. Feels like I've been beaten black and blue with a baseball bat. Seriously I've never felt this shit before.

Apart from when I had flu two years ago and I was literally in bed the entire week watching dvds on my laptop in between sleeping but even then I didn't feel like i'd been beaten up. Anyway, I won't be on here as much until I've recovered. I say this because sitting upright at my computer is actually torture and holding my laptop on my knee for long periods of time doesn't do me any favors.

I've got a whole new respect for old people and people who have trouble normally with muscular pain and problems like this. Never again will I ignore someone who's in pain. I never did anyway, but I don't intend to start.

I'm so messed up I'm like a car crash. I'm putting weight on because I can't move around and be active. And we all know I have trouble with food normally. grrr. x