Hybrid911’s Blog
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I absolutely fucking hate it. If there's anything I can't stand more it's been laid in bed not been able to sleep. I dunno but at night all my problems come back to haunt me as soon as my head hits the pillow bang even things from YEARS ago come flying back. Shit I wouldn't usually think about during the day is there in my mind and it just winds me up so much because most of the stuff really...
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I'm really fucking sick of the same old shit every single day I get just for being me. I'm fucking sick of feeling like the black sheep of the family just because of the choices I've made. I'm fucking sick of being ignored after FUCKING YEARS of me saying it upsets me. I'm fucking sick of life. Just fucking sick of everything not going right. I'm pissed off enough as it is that I'm stuck with...
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:D This has made my day! How smoking hot does Chester look? Without trying to sound like a linkibopper... Woow! *drools* Sorry... Haha... Anyway, 'let down' is quite an old school song if you're a fan of Linkin Park you'll know it was written YEARS ago and we all got to hear it live under 'Snow white tan', and it's not been changed much at all since Chester has used it for Dead by Sunrise. The...
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Hahaha oh I do love it! I love watching fire. It's beautiful. I'm not a pyromaniac by all means, but I do love how it burns so brightly and everything in my mind just seems to clear! This year I went shopping through the day, got a new Ed Hardy necklace from culture vulture and the next southern vampire series book and up to see Vee to drop off the final tattoo design I want and we got...
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Argh... The guy who I was blogging about a few blogs ago has finally plucked up the courage to ask me out... I'm not ready for another boyfriend at the moment.. For one, he's not my type, for two, his lifestyle matches nearly that of problem relationships in the past, and three I'm not risking getting hurt again when I've got back up on my feet. I don't wanna hurt him either he's a fantastic...
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Getting my Linkin Park/Roses tattoo done on the 25th! Vee has convinced me to get the whole piece done as opposed to just part of it because ''if you can take an hours worth of pain on your stomach, your back will be a doddle.'' She fills me with confidence that woman although she did have a huge grin on her face! I told her exactly what I wanted and showed her this design that Amanda has been...
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All the people who've really got me through this past week and to everybody who left their condolences for what happened. You know who you are. I'm not mentioning names but everyone who's helped me this past week without you guys I don't think I'd have been able to hold on cos I just really wanted to let go. Seriously, I can't believe how this started off as one of the best years of my...
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This is potentially life changing in the sense that I could finally have a relationship with two of the people who should have been there for me since I was born.Unfortunately, shit happens and Mum used me as a weapon against my two Grandparents (My Dad's parents) because apparently when Granddad died they made some hurtful remarks or something (Mum won't tell me what was said) and Mum stopped...
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I split this up into two blogs because the other one is really too long. I'm sorry if you've been reading and your bored already, you have my permission to stop reading... Anyway... Everyone was talking about everything other than Jane (far too upsetting) and according to my Dad it was unbelievable how well everybody kept it together especially Simon. Then conversation turned to where I...
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As I blogged this afternoon when I really was in a real state, I thought I may as well let my friends who have been extremely supportive know how the funeral went. I've calmed down now and I'm thinking rationally as opposed to doom and gloom, though I don't blame myself. I will look back on this day as one of the saddest days of my entire life. Fuck the depression, fuck the eating disorder and...
