Love... you cruel bastard.

Fri, Nov 6, 2009 at 9:48 AM By: Kirkio

It must've been about 5 years now, maybe 6. To be honest, I lose count, but let's just say that it's been a LONG time since my first relationship ended. It was pretty long distance, and shit has changed a lot since then (for example: she's with another woman now). We've had a few up and down moments of contact, but we still talk on occasions. She lives on the other side of the country. Hell, I could list 1000 things that show how daft this is gonna sound.

Why is it, that after all this time, distance, change, etc, that I still love her?

1 dream. 1 tiny, insignificant dream and once again I return to the state of 'oh god, if only things were different, I would be so damn happy right now'. I hate this. I like not being a soppy git, but I can't avoid it, it's annoying.

I fucking miss you, and miss the feeling that someone loves me as much as you did.


  1. leeleee avatar

    On Dec 25, leeleee said:

    Hey man.........I know it sucks. Been there. But you really need to just move on. Let yourself open up to something new.If it's been that long then obviously nothing is going to come of it except more torture for you! Do yourself a favor and let it go.

  2. _rayne_ avatar

    On Nov 06, _rayne_ said:

    love sucks. I know the feeling.

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