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Hello my dear Roaches!!!

I'm a little surprised at myself for keeping these somewhat constant. Ususally I get nervous when other people read my work but I guess since I don't know you all and I don't see you.... it just doesn't bother me so much.

Still in NY and I'm getting nervous about heading back. We're taking a different route and as soon as I get home I have to pack. And they have to get a car running for me... more travel.... saying goodbye to mah best friend... and so on... and so forth..... yeeeeaaaahhh all I have is a giant pit of stress waiting on me BUT I will not let it get to me and take it one day at a time.

7 days till I leave :D YAY!!! I hate to say good-bye but it's a step I have to take. I've noticed that my emotions have taken a total 180 from where they were. I was dreading that day coming.... Now I don't think that I can get much more excited for it. I guess I'm now ready to let go and move on to my next big step.

I don't wanna say good-bye to my best friend but I told him how important he was to me and I still think we'll be cool. I lurve him... he's a derp but he's my derp.

Looking around I think about all the things my life has been and all it can become.... I'm making a promise to myself now that I will work hard to make life worth living. Even in the hard times and God knows I've had them. But not for money, or fame, or even for what other people want from me... But for myself. Make life whatever makes me content with it. Try things, have experiences and take once in a lifetime opportunities..... It's time to put my priorities first.

Make your life what you want it and if you need someone to talk to I will willingly listen. Especially if you've read all of this so far. Wow seriously, thanks for reading and if you've read any of the others... or even all of them thank you so much! :) I really appreciate it.

I love you guys so much! Later Roaches!!!!