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I look at you... then i think back about the guys i dated and it doesn't match up......
I would feel too bad if we dated and I was the one who took away your heart cause in the long run of things you're a sweet heart and I m no where close.. I want you to see what everyone else doesn't but that takes time

If i could stop the world for just one day i would spend it with you but then the sun will come up and reality will set in and then all that will change is nothing....... the sadness wont leave, the happiness wont stay.... all that will be left is me standing there trying not to cry as you walk you away.... and into heavens light as we lose another soldier on the field.


Some people's past are darker than others, and well most end up back in the light but those who don't, don't know what it is like to truly feel anything other than hate, sorrow, and fear of the possibility of one person knowing everything about them. Until I knew you that was who I am and because of you i have no identity. I am sure that is a good thing, I know you need time as do I. But that time is for different things, yours is for getting over things, and mine is to help me find the person i truly want to be so I know I can be the right person. Even looking in the past that was not too stable but I see a future that will be good.


My world is crashing around me and you seem to be the out of it all. The life I had trusted with is over, everything is finally normal. But I don't think I could fall in love again. Physical pain I can handle, but its the emotional ones that back.

You were what I was holding on to, and now you do this I know you apologized and I know she needs that ray of sunshine but when she loses it I can't help her because I too am surrounded by nothing but storm clouds. Hers can be darker in a way right now you're the reason I am still standing don't forget that.

Lines have been blurred, and people have been crossed, and friends may be lost, I don't want it to end this way. I knew it would all end but I need you now, please don't leave us like this right now.

The days im too tried to care thats when you come.... the day i spent with you is the highlight of my year but i alredy know it's not going to work between us.

The hardest part of life is knowing that the people you love fall into the same patterns over and over again and you want to say something but you know that they will fall apart and lose all hope if you tell then the truth.

How long am I going to come in second to her?
We can have everything out tonight but what would that change?

WTF am I supposed to do? I don't want to make you chose but if I think I the out come and I'm sure it falls in my favor than I will but until then have a good one and i wish you the best cause you know how I see things...... Just when I do walk away please don't hate me because you will finally understand what you've missed while being so blind to what the world holds around you the love you've looked for and everything that can be said and has been because I know deep down that I love you.. ?... not some bestfriend love like the story book love that over comes everything but of course you know to play the some other guy will see what is there that Donnie saw what was there and you know what? I don't want another guy to see what I want you to. Don't let this kill you but I think I'm giving up on you because you're dead set on being so stubborn and typical that it doesn't even matter what I think than again when did it ever?