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Was just a moment ago. I thought my evanescence cd was in and I was going to listen to 'Even in Death' and then.. It was Infest. ;o; I really wanted to listen to Even in Death. You know, get my Evanescence on cause I'm wearing thier shirt and bracelet at the moment. >> But, singing, 'Some say I'm crazy for my love' must wait! >> Or speaking the whole 'You hold the answers deep within your own mind. Consciously, you've forgotten it. That's the way the human mind works. Whenever something is too unpleasant, too shameful for us to entertain, we reject it. We erase it from our memories, but the imprint it always there.'

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That leads me to believe something really bad happened when I was in the first or second grade because I can't remember it and my mother doesn't like talking about it. Also, I can clearly remember third grade, but what I can't remember is what I was thinking exactly. I seriously was freaking mental. Throwing shit at people. Screaming randomly. Hiding... Yeah. It didn't stop til the fifth grade. But, then, I did switch schools.

Oh and how funny. Tightrope is playing.

So. Yeah. I was an odd child. Actually, I was suspended for intimidating a teacher. xD

But. err. TO MY MOTHER! She went out again. ;o; I don't understand her sometimes. Why be with someone when she clearly tells me she isn't planning on getting married to this guy. If you know you don't really love someone, why even bother?

e_e;

Yeeaaaah. I'm going to go change that cd now. o_e;

And yeah, I know, I have school tomarrow and it's one.

I've done worse. o_o I've been fuckin plastered at this time one morning before school. Seriously. Seventh grade was rough, okay?!

--Nana Shaddix.