I fucking hate my dad..

Sat, Aug 18, 2007 at 10:57 PM By: Traumend

Wanna see what he did now? It was on myspace. I forgot his girlfriend was on my friends list and posted this bulletin.. Well here's what happened. I'm in the small letters, them in caps. 

" "DOES THIS CHILD CARE THAT THE PARENT IS BARELY GETTING BY?
NO!"

Really now?
When that parent has a nice clean house, four-wheelers, playstations..
No.
She doesn't.
Has that parent ever stopped to think about how horrible their child's lifestyle may be?
Come and try to live in this place for a week.
It's worse, much worse.

"THIS CHILD DOES NOT KNOW WHAT IS GOING ON FINANCIALLY. ALL SHE KNOWS IS THAT SHE DID NOT GET WHAT SHE WANTED WHEN SHE WANTED."

I wanted school supplies!
I've never asked for anything unless I needed it.
What? You gonna yell at me for those hair cuts too?

"A COUPLE OF WEEKS BEFORE THE CHILD DID NOT GET HER WAY HER FATHER GAVE HER AND HER MOTHER ( OH MY GOD! TICKETS TO SEE JACOBY SHADDIX! EEEEEEE) HOW WOULD SHE HAVE GOTTEN TO GO IF HE HAD NOT GAVE THEM THE TICKETS. HE AND ONLY ONE OTHER PERSON WAS SUPPOSED TO GO. NO ONE ELSE! HE FELT BAD AND WENT AND BOUGHT HER THE TICKET AND DECIDED TO GIVE HER MOM HIS TICKET BECAUSE HER MOM WANTED TO TAKE HER TO HER FIRST CONCERT AND HE DID NOT HAVE THE TICKETS TO TAKE THE ONLY REAL ONE OUT HERE. DAMN, IS HE A MEAN ASS OR WHAT?"

Ooh. Yeah. That's the reason my mother went. Yeah,. I believe he was out getting drunk and four wheeling?
I remember that night.
Don't even try to lie.
I didn't really care if I went with my mother or father.
I just wanted to go with one of them at least!
Not my dad's girlfriend.
She is in no way related to me and should not take me to something that means that much to me.

"HER NAME IS A CARTOON NAME THAT SHE GAVE HERSELF. (YES, DADDY IS SETTING THE RECORD STRAIGHT)"

Yeah. Because I hate MAKAYLA LEIGH BUCK!
It has no meaning whatsoever.
Makayla = a girl on some show
Leigh = my dad's dad.
Buck = My dad.
Well, I'm quite obviously not in good term with my father. Therefore, I want nothing to do with him.
I've heard what he's done.
I've seen what he's done.
He told me he hated me before
Being drunk is no excuse.


"EVERYTIME SHE NEEDED MATERIAL OR SOMETHING FOR A CARTOON COSTUME PARTY (ANIME CONVENTION OR SOMETHING) DADDY GOT IT. DADDY LET HER MOM DRIVE HIS CAR AND GAVE HER MONEY TO GO TO THIS STUFF! "

uh. Yeah. And he buys all those video games for his son.
I know for a fact he does nothing but steals underwear and sits on that stupid xBox.
Also, funny.
I thought parent's were supposed to let their children do fun things.

"DADDY PAYS CHILD SUPPORT AND THINGS SHOULD BE TAKEN CARE OF WITH THAT. "

Yeah, I've seen those courts shows enough to know that child support isn't for those things. It's for shelter and food.
Not things like that.

"DADDY HAS ALWAYS DONE EXTRAS UNTIL HE DIDN'T HAVE THE MONEY TO DO IT THIS TIME. HE WAS SAVING THE MONEY IN HIS SAVINGS ACCOUNT AND SOMEONE NEEDED TO BORROW IT. THEY TOLD HIM THAT THEY WOULD PAY IT BACK IN JUNE. THEY DIDN'T AND WHEN IT COME TIME TO BUY WHAT THEY WANTED HE SIMPLY SAID DON'T WORRY ABOUT PAYING ME BACK USE THE MONEY TO BUY BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE THE EXTRA MONEY. MAN, THIS DADDY IS GETTING MEANER ALL OF THE TIME!"

Yeah. Again. School supplies are soo something extra.
Also, yoy said for my mother to get those with that money. Yeah, if she had it. She would have paid you.

"SOMEONE NEEDS TO THINK BEFORE THEY SPEAK OR TYPE. STOP AND THINK ABOUT IT. (BTW, SOMEONE IS TYPING FOR DADDY RIGHT NOW) THEY ONLY CALLED OR CAME AROUND WHEN THEY NEEDED MONEY OR WANTED SOMETHING ANYWAY."

you think I want to be here all of the time? No, you need to think. I'm always here watching that stupid four year old, if not, I would be out there.
Which has proven itself a stupid thought on my part.

"DADDY SAYS THAT HE IS GONNA BE BROKE AT CHRISTMAS TIME AND ANY OTHER TIME. OTHER THAN WHAT GETS GARNISHED FROM HIS CHECK. HE WANTS TO GET HIS POINT ACROSS BECAUSE HE FEELS THAT THIS SITUATION IS A LOSS CAUSE ANYMORE. HE IS DONE TRYING AND WILL NOT HELP EVER AGAIN."

Do you remember Christmas last year? We came out there just to make my mother happy because she didn't have the money for what she thought would be a happy time. I don't care about it. I think just being around people who loved me was enough.
But, of course, you can't see that because all you ever think about it money.
Oh, and guess what? My mother is getting garnished too. And after she's done paying off that, she's getting garnished again.
Done trying?
I stopped trying to get my point across after the school incident.

"I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT IT IS LEGAL FOR A DADDY TO BE THIS MEAN."

Oh yeah. He's an angel, ain't he?

"IF THE BROTHER IS THE ONLY REAL ONE WHY DOESN'T HE GET PHONE CALLS OR EMAILS?"

My brother is the one I usually call when I need some help.
Oh God, am I an incest freak again?

"POINT OF THE STORY: DON'T BURN BRIDGES THAT YOU MIGHT HAVE TO CROSS AGAIN!"

Don't worry. I'm dancing in the ashes of that bridge, glad it's gone.

After you read this and post another rant, I'm deleting you so that I'll never have to hear from you all again."

 Yeah. Main reason I'm posting it on here is because of the Jacoby Shaddix thing. It actually made me laugh.

Just fucking now!

They posted a response and deleted it quickly. Wonder why?

Well, I read it and responded.

Here's what they posted.

 

"Really now?
When that parent has a nice clean house, four-wheelers, playstations..No.
She doesn't. Has that parent ever stopped to think about how horrible their child's lifestyle may be? Come and try to live in this place for a week.It's worse, much worse.

TRY CLEANING IT WORKS! STOP KICKING TURDS ACROSS THE FLOOR, GET THE MATCHBOX CARS OUT OF THE LITTER BOX, TAKE OUT THE GARBAGE, AND PICK EVERYTHING UP. YOUR MOM WORKS AND YOU ARE BIG ENOUGH TO DO IT. IF YOU WEREN'T ABLE TO THEN YOU COULD COMPLAIN.

I wanted school supplies! I've never asked for anything unless I needed it.
What? You gonna yell at me for those hair cuts too?

*THAT'S YOUR HAIR. CUT IT AND COLOR IT WHAT YOU WANT. YOU DIDN'T NEED TO DRESS UP ALL THE TIME. HALLOWEEN COMES ONCE A YEAR.

Ooh. Yeah. That's the reason my mother went. Yeah,. I believe he was out getting drunk and four wheeling? I remember that night. Don't even try to lie. I didn't really care if I went with my mother or father. I just wanted to go with one of them at least! Not my dad's girlfriend. She is in no way related to me and should not take me to something that means that much to me.

THANK GOD. NO SHE IS NOT RELATED TO YOU BUT YOU STILL WENT WITH HER. SHE PAID FOR THE GAS TO GO. WE SHOULD HAVE KEPT THE MONEY OR SOLD THE TICKETS SINCE ALL YOU ARE DOING IS COMPLAINING. WOO HOO 40 BUCKS WELL, IT WAS OUR 40 BUCKS! DID YOU HAVE 40 BUCKS? (BORROWING DOESN'T COUNT)

Yeah. Because I hate MAKAYLA LEIGH BUCK! <br />It has no meaning whatsoever.
Makayla = a girl on some show
Leigh = my dad's dad.
Buck = My dad.
Well, I'm quite obviously not in good term with my father. Therefore, I want nothing to do with him.
I've heard what he's done.
 I've seen what he's done.
He told me he hated me before
Being drunk is no excuse.

WHATEVER! WHEN YOU ARE NOT HERE YOU ARE SURROUNDED BY ANGELS RIGHT? NO ONE DOES WRONG BUT YOUR DAD?

uh. Yeah. And he buys all those video games for his son.
I know for a fact he does nothing but steals underwear and sits on that stupid xBox.
Also funny.
I thought parent's were supposed to let their children do fun things.

CODY GETS AN ALLOWANCE FOR HELPING CLEAN THE MANSION WHEN THE MAIDS ARE OFF! CODY SAVES HIS MONEY. HIS DADDY DID NOT BUY HIS NEW GAMES HIS UNRELATED GIRLFRIEND DID. YEP, SHE SPENT 200.00 LAST WEEK ON GAMES FOR CODY. SHE ALSO BOUGHT HIS SCHOOL SHOES (70.00 K SWISS) AND PART OF SCHOOL SUPPLIES. WHY? BECAUSE DADDY COULDN'T

 Yeah, I've seen those courts shows enough to know that child support isn't for those things. It's for shelter and food. Not things like that.

CHILD SUPPORT IS A SUPPLEMENT. IT IS NOT SUPPOSED TO GO TO SUPPORT ANOTHER HOUSEHOLD. THERE ARE TWO OTHER KIDS THAT AREN'T HIS IN THAT HOUSE. HIS MONEY IS NOT TAKE CARE OF THE OTHER ONES TOO.

Yeah. Again. School supplies are soo something extra.
Also, yoy said for my mother to get those with that money. Yeah, if she had it. She would have paid you.

WELL DON'T BORROW IF YOU CAN'T PAY BACK. AND CHILD SUPPORT SHOULD HAVE PAID FOR THAT. HE'S STILL PAYING FOR CODY AND CODY LIVES HERE. SO, THERE SHOULD BE MONEY.

you think I want to be here all of the time? No, you need to think. I'm always here watching that stupid four year old, if not, I would be out there.
Which has proven itself a stupid thought on my part.

WELL, YOU SAID THAT THAT'S WHERE YOU WANNA BE. CODY SAYS THAT HE WANTS TO BE HERE.

Do you remember Christmas last year? We came out there just to make my mother happy because she didn't have the money for what she thought would be a happy time. I don't care about it. I think just being around people who loved me was enough.
But, of course, you can't see that because all you ever think about it money.
Oh, and guess what? My mother is getting garnished too. And after she's done paying off that, she's getting garnished again.
Done trying?
I stopped trying to get my point across after the school incident.

YEP YOU TOOK YOUR GIFTS AND LEFT.  YEP, ONCE AGAIN. PEOPLE TRYING TO HELP BECAUSE YOUR MOM COULDN'T DO IT BY HERSELF. I AM SURE SHE TRIES BUT, YOU ARE THROWING UP STUFF BASICALLY THAT YOUR MOM CAN'T DO. <br />AND WE AREN'T THE ONES GARNISHING HER.

Oh yeah. He's an angel, ain't he?

A WHOLE HELL OF ALOT BETTER THAN MOST DADS WHO GO TO JAIL FOR NOT PAYING CHILD SUPPORT. TRY LIVING LIKE ONE OF THOSE KIDS.

My brother is the one I usually call when I need some help.
Oh God, am I an incest freak again?

YEP, YOUR BROTHER LOANED YOU A GAME THAT YOU DIDN'T WANT TO GIVE BACK AND SOMEONE BROKE HIS OTHER ONE.

Don't worry. I'm dancing in the ashes of that bridge, glad it's gone.

THAT WILL BE REMEMBERED. HOPE YOU DON'T GET BURNED OR DEHYDRATED FROM DANCING.
DELETED!"

 

Well. I, of course, here's what I put. I was crying when I typed it...

"Alright.
Fine.
Delete me from your minds while you're at it.

Just let me point out some shit you have no clue about.
I do clean over here. I like the second parent, okay? I do everything my mother asks of me and more.
Yeah, so sorry I ever asked for anything.
I'm fourteen! And for your information, I've been trying to find some type of job. There aren't too many people who hire fourteen year olds.
Angels? Didn't I already tell you I hate this fucking place?
Ohh.. So you bought Cody's shit? Wanna but mine too?
you know, my dad only keeps your ass around to pay his damn bills because he can't! Oh, call me Tommy now. I'm insinuating stuff, aren't I?
Actually, there's only one other one. And go read up on your shit.
I didn't borrow and damn money. Why the hell am I, yet again, getting blamed for the shit my mother did? My whole life sucks because of her mistakes! Stop making me pay the price of something I never did!
Do you understand how awful it was living in that shitty-ass apartment? There was a night I just wanted to leave so bad and run to my daddy. My mother was crying so much. I couldn't just leave her..
Took my gift's and left? There was a three year old who needed his bed there. Yeah, I keep throwing up my mother because it's completely stupid how you blame me because she didn't pay you back! It's not my fault! nd also, I'm not the one garnishing you.
Don't even start on child support. You are aware we can get that raised, yes? I'm nice enough to tell my mother not to do that.
you know what kind of kid I want to live like? One where you don't have to worry about where you parents are. When you know they're in the other room happy. A nice house. A real school. No therapists telling you left and right that you can't make it without medication. Friends that don't take advantage of you. A world with love.
Oh, so fucking sorry. I was asleep when he came and got that stupid playstation. Come on over here and get it. I'll give you some other things while you're at it.
Maybe one day, I'll just burn up in these flames of rage. All I ever wanted was to be loved by my dad. I wanted him to stop drinking and have normal friends his age. Do you know how hard it is to come out these every weekend, meet new stupid teenagers, and see my dad destroying himself? And always asking me: You know If I were to die right now...?
I wanted a normal life.
Not this one that I'm enduring now.
I do feel that I complain a lot sometimes.
But, what am I supposed to do in my current situation? You tell me. right now, I just trying to focus on my school and graduate. Go to collage..
Just want to be somebody and be loved.
If I can't get it from my father then, I'm not sticking around to watch him kill himself.
I hate to see you drinking and smoking all the time.
I just can't care anymore because what's the point in caring about someone who always turns around and hates you for some fucked up reason?

And just so you know, My mother doesn't know I'm sending this now.
All of this is coming from me.
In fact, she never wanted me the repost that response.
She wants me to just let it go..
But I can't go unheard anymore.
I'm always silent in shadows..watching...waiting for the day I can emerge and accepted into warm arms.
It's never going to come though..never.
Is it?"

 

Then, I sent another message as an afterthought. I was a little better then..

"Eric is the one I call when I need something.

And I know I do over twice the amount of work Cody does.
My mother told earlier in that other response not to say anything about Cody. I'm not listening anymore. Call me immature. I'm just trying to make you understand. I do dishes, laundry, cook.. everything. I'm not allowed to leave ever. Maybe once a month, if I'm lucky. Tonight even, I was supposed to go out with my friends. Nope, stuck here. Don't think you were the only one 'missing' me. I do all of this just to see my mother smile. That's enough for me. To have my mother walk in the door and hug me telling my she loves me. I don't want to hand me ten dollars. Just love.

Money is nothi

  1. cooky avatar

    On Aug 26, cooky said:

    i hate my dad too!

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