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So,it's been a few months since I've last written this kind of stuff...




My mind wanders as I lay in my bed
These thoughts are reoccurring and just won't leave
And just when I think I'm safe in dream world, he's there
He's caused me so much pain in my life, yet I can't stay away
He's one of the greatest friends to me, but I want him out of my life
Our friendship has been one long roller-coaster
And from what I see, the ride still isn't over
I'm crazy about him and have been for years
But I can never let him know that I still love him
It's ruined our friendship before, and we're finally back to the way it was
I don't want to lose one of the best people in my life; one of the only people who have stayed by me through my darkest days
In order not to ruin this, I have to keep my mouth shut
So once again, I'll be sitting in my bed, waiting for sleep to overcome me, and he'll come running through my mind without hesitation
It's not that he's not in my mind during the day, but it's at night, when the silence overcomes, that he overpowers everything else in my mind
So I'll keep this a secret, hoping the feelings will leave,even though I know they won't.
...But a girl can have hopes and dreams....right...?

Emily Gottlieb 12/2/09